2:33am

I wish you could feel

the way I feel.

I wish you could

wipe away my tears,

and tell me that

everything will be okay

because you’re here

and I wish you were

but I’ve been lying to myself.

I put a smile on my face, 

thinking things will be okay.

I try to stay positive

but at the end of the day, 

it’s still and always will be

the same..

I don’t know what to feel and how to feel
Now I understand why I became this way
People have constantly toyed with my emotions
I let it slide, thinking I’d be okay
Well, It’s not okay

I’ve grown accustomed to this numbness